Archive for the ‘General’ Category

Busy!

Friday, November 28th, 2008

Wow, two websites to maintain and another one (this one) to vent about it! At least I’m spending my days productively, haha.

I just got back on Monday from my awesome 1,500+ mile trip to Mesa Verde. My last day consisted of me driving some 650 miles (!) from Gallup, New Mexico to Los Angeles, California. Stopped at the Painted Desert and Meteor Crater, Arizona. Wow, wasn’t expecting Meteor Crater to be that commercialized. $15 entrance fee to climb up the hill to look at a hole in the earth. I felt much better giving my $25 to drive through Zion National Park or $10 to drive to Mesa Verde or through the Painted Desert. But I feel kind of scammed giving $15 to see the Meteor Crater, especially when it says “Meteor Crater Incorporated” on my receipt (no joke…).

Anyhow, was a great drive, and definitely worth it. Hotel costs killed me on this trip though - I’ve got to find a way to cut back on those. Probably going in the summer and camping!

Adventure

Wednesday, November 19th, 2008

So I’ve decided to drive somewhere for the time I have off for Thanksgiving. I’m thinking Mesa Verde

And I’ll make it there, Lord willing! Well, still have to work out the technicalities. I’m honestly willing to sleep in my car the whole way, but campsites would be better. Need to plan!

Doing well

Friday, October 31st, 2008

You know what, despite my friends mocking me, I’m doing quite well. I am more profilic than I ever have been. I’ve been successfully updating three blogs and I’m learning a lot of things on my own for once.

I was going to complain about being mocked, but you know what, screw them.

While once describing my frustration over a girl, I was told I really deserve better anyway. You know what, that’s true. I do deserve better. Maybe I even deserve better friends.

I have always done my best work by myself, isolated and alone. That’s where my most meaningful contributions are made. They’re not made at endless drunken parties or being a non-contributor to society while playing endless video games. Or spending endless amounts of cash on new gadgets. #*% that. I realized early on, while that stuff is fun and neat and all, it entirely misses the meaning of life. People complain about not knowing the meaning of life, meanwhile they don’t even get off the couch or stop partying to think about it for themselves.

In short, damn you all for being so blind and for calling ME blind. And for implying that I’m somehow crazy or need professional help because I don’t enjoy the bullshit and crap that you guys enjoy.

I want to kick myself for not being confident in myself with saying this earlier, but I’m quite confident I’m not off the mark with this post.

I’m doing well. Quite well, thanks.

Getting back into things

Sunday, October 26th, 2008

How is it that a lame man does not annoy us while a lame mind does? Because a lame man recognizes that we are walking straight, while a lame man says that it is we who are limping. But for that we should feel sorry rather than angry.

Pascal, Pensees (#98)

Trying to get back into the hang of school. Looks like I’ll be concentrating on that for the next couple years, as I should be I suppose. Might’ve taken me ten years to finish while working full time…

It’s Friday night and I just got paid…

Friday, October 24th, 2008

Well, it’s another Friday night, and I just got paid. Sitting here at home again trying to be productive…

It feels like I’ve lost a job. I guess it’s easy to feel that way after you get a phone call telling you how much the job is offering you, and that you’ll be sent the offer letter the next day. Then to be called the next day by your manager and told that basically there was a mix-up and I’m not eligible for the position. And never to hear from HR again…

Yeah, so that was this week.

Oh well, my resolve is strengthened and I continue to carry on with my personal projects. My WWI flight sim site is still coming along very well. I continue to have a blast updating it and watching all my visitors come by. I now have the game developers themselves coming to me and corresponding with me! Or something similar, where I’m actually mistaken for the game developer and as a result, and I’m contacted by a distributor who’s anxious to hear of the release date.

I just launched the Forum over there, which isn’t wildly popular, but does have some people signed up and posting already, which is a good sign.

Also, if you couldn’t tell by now, sometimes I’m pretty open and honest on my personal blog here. But I’ve had a desire recently to keep up a professional web development blog, which I launched this summer. I’m starting to hit a stride with it finally. As a study more and more, and as I just maintain my website, I’ll update it with any stuff I learned. It’s sure to be useful to someone, somewhere…

The crescendo after the calm

Friday, October 17th, 2008

Most people know Beethoven’s Fifth symphony for its famous opening four notes - “Dat Dat Dat Daah”. But recently I’ve come to appreciate it for it other movements. Up until recently I’ve enjoyed the beauty of the second movement. But one of the most amazing parts of the entire symphony is the fourth movement, which starts with a great crescendo that’s almost startling after the long calm of the third movement.

This is my life - for the longest time, a leaf floating on the calm waves, letting the waves take me wherever it leads. And then - BANG! The fourth movement, and I am now the wave that crashes onto the rocks by the shore. Timpani drums sound and the great waves roar and let themselves be heard. This is my life now - the crescendo at the start of the fourth movement:

Server issues!

Thursday, October 9th, 2008

Dreamhost and my website and having issues co-existing. Up until recently, I hadn’t cracked down on some hotlinking of my images, and they were being requested like crazy. So my solution was to finally do what I should’ve done long ago: disable hotlinking of images.

My webserver is run by Dreamhost, which honestly has been a great web provider and really hasn’t given me issues until now. However, since I’m on shared hosting, they have to load balance their servers with special script killers. For instance, if my site begins hogging up too much resources via PHP pages, the script killer will kill off the process, resulting in a 500 Internal Server Error.

The thing is, the script killer seemed to not only kill the process but kill the original PHP script as well. This resulted in this blog as well as my new one-entry developer blog being completely broken. It also killed off some other PHP scripts on my site, including the home page, which is dead simple, but uses some PHP includes. As a result, most of my website remained inaccessible for probably way too long. I have been busy lately with school and work, but I was really neglecting this site!

Anyhow, things seem to be under control now, but I’m still trying to get stuff up and running.

In the meantime, my WWI Air Combat site seems largely unaffected, which is strange, since it runs on the same server and uses custom PHP scripts that I built to run it.

Father and Son (Cat Stevens)

Monday, August 4th, 2008

Father:

Son:

Father
Its not time to make a change,
Just relax, take it easy.
Youre still young, thats your fault,
Theres so much you have to know.
Find a girl, settle down,
If you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but Im happy.

I was once like you are now, and I know that its not easy,
To be calm when youve found something going on.
But take your time, think a lot,
Why, think of everything youve got.
For you will still be here tomorrow, but your dreams may not.

Son
How can I try to explain, when I do he turns away again.
Its always been the same, same old story.
From the moment I could talk I was ordered to listen.
Now theres a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.

Father
Its not time to make a change,
Just sit down, take it slowly.
Youre still young, thats your fault,
Theres so much you have to go through.
Find a girl, settle down,
If you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but Im happy.
(son– away away away, I know I have to
Make this decision alone - no)
Son
All the times that I cried, keeping all the things I knew inside,
Its hard, but its harder to ignore it.
If they were right, Id agree, but its them you know not me.
Now theres a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.
(father– stay stay stay, why must you go and
Make this decision alone? )

Worst camping ever

Monday, August 4th, 2008

OK - so there’s some things that would’ve been nice to have known before going camping with my “friends”. Part of me honestly thinks that it was intentionally withheld from me for greater effect. So I learned about it through completely shameless and completely obvious innuendo. I spent the entire time pissed off. Instead of yelling and venting my anger and pissing everyone else off, I just went back to my own tent and vented there. I had a horrible night “sleeping”, and finally woke up at 3:30am and passed the time listening to music and watching the sunrise.

Bloody hell! Never again… Next time I go camping it’ll be by myself or with my family.

Wall-E summary and review

Sunday, July 6th, 2008

Wall-E posterI saw Wall-E this week, along with two other films, Hancock and Wanted. Wall-E, despite me being really uninterested in it, and honestly put-off by the previews, turned out to be probably the best movie I’ve seen this year. It’s a great movie for all ages - it has very limited dialogue, so most of the jokes are visual gags, which everyone can understand. But the story is really exceptional as well.

SPOILERS! You have been warned!

As it turns out, Wall-E is a green movie. There’s been a lot in the air lately about the benefits of being green, and of doing things to save the environment. I’m not sure this movie is a result of that movement, or if the story evolved separately, but it doesn’t really matter.

Basically, Wall-E is a trash compactor robot who spends his days making skyscraper buildings out of the blocks of trash he compacts. There’s no sign of life on earth except for Wall-E and his insect friend. But Wall-E is just a robot, so basically the only sign of life that we see is the insect. Wall-E carries on his programmed trash duties seemingly unaware that his creators, the humans, have long since left the planet some 700+ years ago. But there is some excitement in his day, since he sometimes chances upon interesting pieces of trash: Rubik’s cubes, fire extinguishers, lighters, colored party lights, and even pieces of other Wall-E robots, which turns out to be useful when his parts need replacing!

Wall-E and his Rubik’s cubeWall-E carries on his day-to-day duties until one day when a probe from the human’s cruise ship lands on Earth. The ship sends out a smaller probe called “Eve” to go search for signs of life - organic matter such as plants. At first, Eve is somewhat hostile to Wall-E, to say the least. But after long days of searching Earth for signs of life, Eve gets somewhat depressed. Well, as depressed as is robotically possible, anyhow. Wall-E uses the opportunity to bond with Eve, and brings her back to his place to show her around. Eve finds the plant matter, and being dutiful to her mission directive, grabs the plant and proceeds to shut down in hibernation mode.

Wall-E and EveAt this point in the story I started to really become attached to the two characters. Wall-E seemingly knows Eve’s mission directive, and puts her on the roof of his makeshift house, maybe so she transmits the homing signal better. Wall-E waits for Eve, holding up umbrellas to shield her from the rain (and endures being struck by lightning several times…), watching sunsets with her lifeless form, until one day he gives up and goes back to his normal life of trash compacting.

But then the ship comes back and scoops Eve away - almost leaving behind Wall-E, who manages at the last second to grab ahold of the spacecraft. So begins the real meat of the story, where we discover that the humans have maintained their settlement on a big cruise liner in space - for some 700 years.

Wall-E starts his search for Eve, which brings him through the everyday life of the humans on the space cruiseliner. The ship takes care of all the annoyances of life as we know it today. Robots are there to do the bidding of every human. Need to get to the store? Why bother walking when you can simply buy a floating chair, which takes you from place to place all automatically? There are robots to feed you, to move for you, and even to think for you. The result of humankind 700 years into the future is that we are a race of obese automatons who carry on with our lives with the robots making all the decisions for us.

EveWhen Wall-E finally finds Eve, he follows on her pre-programmed route that takes her directly to the captain of the ship to inform him that the Earth is once again capable of sustaining life, and to offer Wall-E’s plant as proof. Through some circumstances, the plant is lost, after which, through a series of unfortunate circumstances, the duo become identified as “rogue robots”, and are subsequently always on the run, while simultaneously on the search for the plant.

When they finally find the plant, it’s presented to the captain, but now it’s clear that the robots of the ship are the ones actually in control. The captain, who is as obese as his crew, has all but fallen into the “automatic” mode of daily life, in which he relies on the robots to even make decisions for him. But he makes a brave move and wrestles control away from the robots. After a long struggle, the plant is finally verified to be proof of sustainability of life on Earth, and the ship speeds ahead back towards Earth. When the obese citizens finally get used to actually moving their feet to walk around, they recolonize Earth. The credits are filled with nice art that depicts the people planting, farming, fishing, etc - all the things we take for granted now. And of course we see Wall-E and Eve as a now inseparable pair who themselves help in recolonizing the planet.

The film delivers a great philosophical message, which is probably why I like it so much. But it’s also a “cute” movie, as my sister says. I really did start to tear up at times. I really got connected to the characters.

Wall-E gazing at the starsThe message of the movie is in the end intensely “green”, as I mentioned at the beginning of my review. And it is intensely anti-big-corporation. All through the movie, on the abandoned earth and all around the cruise ship is the ubiquitous “Buy N Large” logo, which - there is no other way to put it - has really enslaved the human population and made them dependent. All through the movie the message is to think for yourself, to not be a robot or a slave. And incidentally, when Wall-E the robot decided to hitch a ride on the space probe that was carrying his dear companion Eve, when he arrived on the cruise ship he was the most human of all the actual humans aboard. He was the only one who broke out of his daily routine to becoming independent of his programming to follow his heart. And by the end of the movie, so too did the humans break out of their daily routines of automation and a lazy lifestyle. It’s then that we realize how great it is to be freethinking, to be physically and mentally independent of technology, and what it means to be human. And as hard as it may be to communicate this message of humanity through a pair of robots, the film easily delivers.

Great movie - go watch it :)